Thoughts

Its so loud inside inside my head, its louder than i had expected. And the silence is expansive yet numb.. The overall effect is deeper than it seems. Its not shallow not momentary.. The defining moment is still to come, there is more to everything.. Silence is expanding its wings and flooding the thoughts. There is insight into what is happening.. There is inability to react, inability to acknowledge the emotions attached.. Something is dormant inside, something is amiss.. Speaking up and distractions don't help.. Crying doesn't do much either, loneliness settles inside.. When there is a need of someone no-one is available.. Dude are things OK is the sentence that can trigger unexpected responses. The mind wants answers quickly as its tired of the dullness, its open to solutions but not complications. There are suggestions as well as guidance still there is no openness no clarity.

The wild winds,  the pouring rain the smell of the warm mud;  gives me pleasure.. My hair flowing wild, frock flowing high. I run into the wide fields, feeling the dew, beneath my feet. The smell of grass & wet flowers lend peace... Unburdening myself, breaking free! That's what i wanna achieve, Since isolation is a disease. Suddenly far in the mist, there is figure, hazy as of now.. Approaching me,  slowly and gradually,  it walks towards me.. And the moment i'm about to see it, i'm up with the morning breeze..

Like a puzzle i see myself, solving and joining the pieces that fit the present perfectly. Gazing into the clear blue sky, the sun lights up the way for the treasure hunt and the adventures that i still have to survive. Yet, somewhere i'm confident that among the treasures that i'll collect will the one that i deep down desperately desire. Taking all in, walking down the chosen path, i have little clue how would things be, yet i'm hoping that it'll be better than it used to be. The warm wind is blowing away the dust from the unused corners of my life, making space for the new adjustments, the night sky is adding its limitlessness and the moon is adding its serene effect. To my mind there are no boundaries for the ideas, for the thoughts or the desires that are still unsatisfied. Its rather like a stream of river that is flowing freely and finally ending up in the huge ocean that is unexplored and has its share of mysteries. There are portions of my mind that are unex

Walking, walking alone and in one of the coldest windy evenings, just to think and open up the closed spaces of the mind seems refreshing. The society was at its usual self... the path was properly lit.. the people took their evening walk.. yet there was this unusual silence. Listening to music made the environment come to life and the emotions filled my mind with all the possibilities and expressions which had gathered dust. Dull life got its meaning and some solutions to make it light. I've sensed the pattern of conversations that i make, the feelings that don't find a way to come out and find either a verbal or a non verbal expression. Things that are silly take a toll on my senses, and the truth messes itself up. Confused as i am now situations and people seem unimpressive and non-entertaining to me. Words written in sand and zig-zag thoughts are what i can speak. Meaning has hidden itself into some corner of my mind, yet a statement "needs are limited and wants are