Myself

Its been awhile since I'm not my best..
I feel like I'm at test..
Things inside are not at rest..

Yes, it seems like a rhyme but it's something that is constantly going on.. The times when I try sharing it, venting it out.. I feel like I'll be judged.. The answers are all solution focused.. What is required is patience with a patient hearing..

Thoughts about future seem blurred.. The present is dull and the past is dark.. The world looks with an unwanted smile.. Its vicious eyes are piercing through my soul. I look sane outside but inside everything is going insane.

I don't want to be a subject of conversations rather I desire self perception, a vision to help me clear my doubts..

My To Do list is overflowing.. I have so much that I Have to do and so much that I Plan to do. My mission is missing, I'm becoming lethargic to the thought of putting hard work. My efforts are missing and I know I'll succumb to these undue pressures that have been burdening my present.

I'm screaming but my screams are not heard. I'm running but my feet are tied. I'm fighting but my hands are not there.. I'm caged by the thoughts of finding peace, finding myself and rejoicing the moments of sheer pleasure. I want to feel rejuvenated, a better judge of myself.. I want to be ME!

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